I have to firstly start this off by saying we weren’t ‘trying’ for a girl. Somehow after 2 boys everyone thinks I was desperate for some estrogen in the house but having truly healthy and happy children was my only goal for our growing family.
I have to admit though, now that I know this wee one growing inside of me is a little girl I couldn’t be more excited and I have to admit a little (or maybe a lot) nervous! I’m trying not to become a total loony tune about it but those thoughts of “I wonder whether she’ll wear my wedding dress” have crossed my mind. Of course I am far too sensible to think she isn’t going to look at it in 20 something years from now or so and say “Mom are you out of your mind” but it doesn’t stop me from getting sentimental about the things I never thought I would.
One of the great joys about a growing family is to think of not only my relationship with my kids but theirs with each other. My two boys are now going to be big brothers to a little sister and I just can’t stop thinking of all the memories we are going to make together. Being a girl growing up wasn’t the easiest thing in the world for me and so I naturally have anxiety about my little girl and want to make sure she’s full of confidence and love for herself in a world that can often be so harsh. I want her to grow up with a sense of love and respect for herself as well as for others. Ahhh, see off I go again I just can’t seem to help it.
I know I’m not the only person that has kept her pregnancy test. When I did the event with Clearblue a few weeks ago, many of you shared stories of keeping your tests with me on Twitter and Facebook But I am still so in shock about this pregnancy that I still have my Clearblue Easy pregnancy test sitting on my side of our bathroom cabinet (somehow I don’t think my hubby would appreciate it shoved in with his deodorant and cologne!). I have to admit I check it each morning to see if that positive pregnancy result is still in the window and it brings a smile to my face and now when I smile I think of a little girl.
I know it’s a tad (or a lot) odd but I don’t care! I still have the pregnancy test but after all our pregnancy struggles to think we are actually going to have a third baby brings me to tears of joy and I am reminded once again what a blessing children are and why I do what I do is so important to me. I simply can’t wait to introduce Mini Miss Pope to the world!